So update, only losing a couple of grams is really bugging me out. I am actually getting petrified I will never lose enough weight. Mum pushed me into entering the “8 week” challenge at anytime fitness, I know that I won’t get picked for the competition part, but all other applicants will be at Cessnock and they will set up a biggest loser style competition. I honestly think this is the kick in the butt I need. I need someone to encourage me, and unlike mum who encourages me by saying “you can’t be happy with the way you look”, or “don’t lie and say your happy”, “how could you be happy”. I need a positive encouragement. I jsut need to get passed being embarrassed to go to the gym. I always feel like people are looking at me, and laughing. I also started going to boxing today, and the instructor was so hard on me and I loved it. Be it was hard for me to keep up at times, but i’ll get use to it. My only concern though is when I was asked why I want to compete in the challenge all I could muster up was, I’m scared I won’t get the chance to get married or have kids because of how I look.
I am a loser, a sad one at that.
